A letter I wrote you before you were born …. 24/7/15

Okay so here is a letter I wrote to you a week before you were actually born ….. 
Dear sofia,

To my unborn niece , we are all so excited to meet you beautiful girl, mummy and daddy have got everything ready and they are just waiting for your very special arrival, your mummy went to the midwives today I think your going to prove to be very stubborn indeed, like your mother. The midwives told her that your lying back to back and to expect a long labour , you mum was far from chuffed with this news , in fact she was so disheartened she ran out to the super market and bought 2 litres worth of pineapple juice and a whole fresh pineapple, I think she’s trying to tell you to vacate the premises sweetie. I’d take the hint if I was you .

We have all spoilt you so much already , I’m so excited to see you in the clothes I have got you. Not to long ago I bought a crocheting kit , it was to crochet a monkey that I was going to give to your mummy when you were born , I’m sorry to say sofia but it nearly ended up through my window and across the street , nobody told me that crocheting would be so bloody hard!!! I should have listed to my best friend when she said with a slight amount of suprise to her voice …. “your going to do that?” I rather confidently said yes and then said I was doing her little girl one too !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well that’s never going too happen.

So my little mooch it’s your call , we are all waiting for you my darling it’s your call (apart from August the 4th , don’t leave it that late , because if you don’t come soon that’s the day you’ll be induced… sorry to break it too you kiddo.)

So my lovely girl you will be the most loved little girl in the world , so many people are waiting for you , I bet it’s making you feel like a little celeb right now , well enjoy it … It wears off after a while , unless of course you actually do become a celeb well then you’ll just have a lifetime of people following you around with cameras haha.

Love you moochie, so much already , can’t wait to hug you tightly and kiss you so you can feel a small proportion of just how much I love you already.

Take care sweetie and ill meet you soon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx


The day you were born.


Well this makes for a rather interesting post, you were born at 5.23am on Friday the 31st of July, weighing in at a healthy 7lb 7oz .

so the day started your nana rushing into my room to tell me that your mums waters have broken and that she’s heading into hospital, I woke up in a massive daze not sure whether I was dreaming or whether it was really happening. there I was at 5.00am Thursday morning all naïve at the fact she would go to hospital and you would pop out and id be an auntie at 7.00am . well your mum came home didn’t she !! you still in her belly. so I went to work to excited to focus on anything else but you! what will she look like? is she going to be ok? .

I eventually finished my 12 hour shift and came home your mum was just coming back from the hospital as her contractions were starting to intensify , they told her to come home and relax until her contractions were so far apart. it had always been known that your mum had wanted it to be you and your dad so as much as id have loved to have seen you be born I respected their wishes and resigned myself to the fact id meet you not long after which was fine , but when I got in your mum was in a lot of pain I ran her a bath and comforted her as much as I could have , alongside your dad . it got to the point when it was time to go back to the hospital I helped your mum get ready and then that’s when she asked me to come , I was so honoured and unbelievably happy that I was going to get to see my beautiful niece be born!! .

we got to the hospital in a rush, your mum was exhausted and in a lot of pain . we ran a bath for her in the birthing suite and she tried to relieve her contractions . nothing seemed to be helping her. she had to get out for a check up so your dad helped her out and assisted her to the bed, 4 cms  dilated your mum was disheartened . she had gas and air and an injection to ease the pain which it did to considerably.

at about 4.00am on Friday morning your mum had to go on a drip as it had been 24 hours since her waters broke and it was to decrease any chances of you and her getting any infections, your mum was checked again not long after this and was 9 1/2 cms dilated woohoo !! it was then your mum started to involuntarily push, this panicked me so I rushed out to the midwives station to check all was okay , and that this was a normal thing. apparently it was and so she was left to do her thing.

at about 5.15 am you mum was told she could push , and so she did you were finally born at 5.23am you were wet bloody and slimy  , you were blue and not moving the midwife started to rub you with a towel , you still didn’t move , I started to panic a little . she turned around and asked me to pass her another towel , I couldn’t find one so passed her sheet , she continued to rub you and you squirmed a little but didn’t respond as she would have liked. she moved you over to the table and then rang the emergency buzzer . a crash team came running in with about 6 people surrounding your tiny body. I started to cry , in hope you would be ok. eventually you started to breathe in a relatively normal manor , you were passed briefly to your mum for a cuddle in which I took the opportunity to plant a massive kiss on your head.

you were the whisked off to NICU, I gave your mum a kiss and a cuddle and then I had to leave to go to work , I cried all the way to the car park and all the way home . then all the way to work. praying you would be ok.

little did we know that night we found out you had meningitis and would be in hospital for 2 weeks.

thank you for being you , and thank you for being the little fighter you were!!.

love you x