Butterfly’s and dinosaurs…

Dear my beautiful, caring intelligent Sofia,

Today we took a trip to a tropical butterfly house with a little friend of yours B ! You were cuddling her and kissing her and holding hands from the second you saw her to the end of the trip ! Even in the car you both held hands afraid of being separated! It melted me . B is my goddaughter so the fact you both get on means the world to me.

So you ran round with her looking at all the animals pointing in amazement and laughing , the day didn’t go without tantrums but they are to be expected of a child that’s not far away from turning two 😘.

We got to the dinosaur walk through you were amazed at the roars of the dinosaur when you pressed the buttons 😂 and became a button pressing addict! It was so hard to tear you away from your new found love ! 

You looked after B all day feeding her , hugging her giving her drinks even though you had a cheeky swig yourself 😂. And at one point took her dummy , you’ve never had a dummy but your obsession. With them is beyond reasonable ! .

We had a go at bashing our coins into a lucky coin tree which at many points you were more than happy just to climb up them 😂.

Over all we had an amazing day I took you back to mummy and daddy and bathed you , we played and then you went to bed . I love you so much missy ! Your a beautiful kind, caring being . 


Checking out the duck 😂 love you xxxxxxxxxx


George got demoted ….

Hey beautiful babes ,

So I’m gutted you stopped last night ( I was at work for 12 hours ) and you stopped again tonight ( I was at work another 12 hours) . So we have not managed to cross paths at all.

well except for this morning when you raced into my room and asked for George …. you may be wondering who George actually is right ? Well you’ve actually demoted the famous peppa pig and now apparently according to you it’s all about George .  

So you sat on my bed with me for half an hour scrolling through peppa pig videos looking for George . “Where’s George?” Was the famous phrase of the half an hour I got to spend with you 😦 . You were quite happy when you got to a video staring George but as soon as he was off screen you weren’t bothered and you were on to the next video in search of your new found love . 

Apparently today you did some colouring at the table with nana and spent a little time talking to the little girl next door .  Apart from that beautiful I don’t have much to write you . 

I love you so much babes . Sweet dreams and I’ll hopefully spend another George filled half an hour with your tomorrow before I have too shoot off again 😦 .


The weekend and mothers day.


Its been a lovely weekend, yesterday we spent the day chilling out you were my best friend considering a few days earlier I was considerably not one of your favourites. I couldn’t look at you without you giving me an evil stare or you shouting inaudible words at me haha. you were quite poorly though so I understood.

yesterday we went shopping with your mummy , you were insistent on holding the basket with me around the shop and every so often went on a mad dash which resulted in my chasing you full speed around the isles , you found this hilarious chuckling until I caught you. then well it was screams and more inaudible insults. when we got home you helped your dad plant some plants in the garden , potting plants, watering them and attempting to dig holes in the grass. every five seconds you would look up and tell me there was either a bird or a plane in the sky . you were adorable .

today you came round for Sunday lunch , you scoffed your lamb and the announced to the table you were finished haha , you then went round the table telling everyone who they were . after this we went on a walk , taking you on a walk is like taking the queen you make me smile so  much , you wave at everyone and say hello . you stood watching two dogs in awe as they were running in and out of the water fetching sticks . “hello doggy” and then you would tootle on . your favourite part seemed to be the little water fall… you stuck your head through the railings laughing and smiling at the water gushing by and the cold air coming up at your face .


now your fast off or you were when we departed , love you little one never stop smiling xxx



The day you were born.


Well this makes for a rather interesting post, you were born at 5.23am on Friday the 31st of July, weighing in at a healthy 7lb 7oz .

so the day started your nana rushing into my room to tell me that your mums waters have broken and that she’s heading into hospital, I woke up in a massive daze not sure whether I was dreaming or whether it was really happening. there I was at 5.00am Thursday morning all naïve at the fact she would go to hospital and you would pop out and id be an auntie at 7.00am . well your mum came home didn’t she !! you still in her belly. so I went to work to excited to focus on anything else but you! what will she look like? is she going to be ok? .

I eventually finished my 12 hour shift and came home your mum was just coming back from the hospital as her contractions were starting to intensify , they told her to come home and relax until her contractions were so far apart. it had always been known that your mum had wanted it to be you and your dad so as much as id have loved to have seen you be born I respected their wishes and resigned myself to the fact id meet you not long after which was fine , but when I got in your mum was in a lot of pain I ran her a bath and comforted her as much as I could have , alongside your dad . it got to the point when it was time to go back to the hospital I helped your mum get ready and then that’s when she asked me to come , I was so honoured and unbelievably happy that I was going to get to see my beautiful niece be born!! .

we got to the hospital in a rush, your mum was exhausted and in a lot of pain . we ran a bath for her in the birthing suite and she tried to relieve her contractions . nothing seemed to be helping her. she had to get out for a check up so your dad helped her out and assisted her to the bed, 4 cms  dilated your mum was disheartened . she had gas and air and an injection to ease the pain which it did to considerably.

at about 4.00am on Friday morning your mum had to go on a drip as it had been 24 hours since her waters broke and it was to decrease any chances of you and her getting any infections, your mum was checked again not long after this and was 9 1/2 cms dilated woohoo !! it was then your mum started to involuntarily push, this panicked me so I rushed out to the midwives station to check all was okay , and that this was a normal thing. apparently it was and so she was left to do her thing.

at about 5.15 am you mum was told she could push , and so she did you were finally born at 5.23am you were wet bloody and slimy  , you were blue and not moving the midwife started to rub you with a towel , you still didn’t move , I started to panic a little . she turned around and asked me to pass her another towel , I couldn’t find one so passed her sheet , she continued to rub you and you squirmed a little but didn’t respond as she would have liked. she moved you over to the table and then rang the emergency buzzer . a crash team came running in with about 6 people surrounding your tiny body. I started to cry , in hope you would be ok. eventually you started to breathe in a relatively normal manor , you were passed briefly to your mum for a cuddle in which I took the opportunity to plant a massive kiss on your head.

you were the whisked off to NICU, I gave your mum a kiss and a cuddle and then I had to leave to go to work , I cried all the way to the car park and all the way home . then all the way to work. praying you would be ok.

little did we know that night we found out you had meningitis and would be in hospital for 2 weeks.

thank you for being you , and thank you for being the little fighter you were!!.

love you x