Visit to the farm, tantrums and ice creams.


Yesterday was such a lovely day . 

Your mum bought you round to come get me . You were jumping up and down on my bed then landing on your bum you turned and looked at me and said “I’m just crazy Jess” haha you had me in stitches .

I got ready and then we left for the farm , you kept asking for your friend B. We saw goats , sheep , pigs , rabbits ,guinea pigs , baby lambs (which you fed a bottle with your mum) . You just loved it Sofia .

You stood by the chickens clucking at the top of your lungs and laughing so hard ( I wish I had a video of that ) .

All was going swimmingly until ….. 

lunch time , it didn’t help that the lunch area was right by the sandpit, slides and activity centre . You threw the biggest tantrum screaming and crying and at one point you launched your open packed of crisps behind you and it hit a little boy in the head and the rest of the crisps hit his mum , me and your mum wanted the ground to swallow us whole . Eventually you gave in after what felt like 24 hours of pure toddler tantrum , with everyone looking over to see what all the fuss was about . I can’t tell you how relieved I was when you piped down to eat your sausages and fruit smoothie , odd combo but to be honest you were eating and me and your mum weren’t going to tell you anything that would put you back in the mood you were in before . 

So afterwards it was then a much needed playtime . You were so good , Playing nicely with the other children . 

After this we had a much needed ice cream, and played hide and seek with your mum . 

When we got home you were a little dream , I bathed you , you were determined to bathe me to 😂. You brushed your teeth nicely and then we played before it was time for you to go to sleep . 

You suppose me everyday with how idependant your becoming , how your language improving and how I hear you say a new word almost everyday . 

I love you so much Sofia , thank you for a beautiful day yesterday and thank you for being the fun , kind beautiful girl you are . Love you xxxxxx


A letter I wrote you before you were born …. 24/7/15

Okay so here is a letter I wrote to you a week before you were actually born ….. 
Dear sofia,

To my unborn niece , we are all so excited to meet you beautiful girl, mummy and daddy have got everything ready and they are just waiting for your very special arrival, your mummy went to the midwives today I think your going to prove to be very stubborn indeed, like your mother. The midwives told her that your lying back to back and to expect a long labour , you mum was far from chuffed with this news , in fact she was so disheartened she ran out to the super market and bought 2 litres worth of pineapple juice and a whole fresh pineapple, I think she’s trying to tell you to vacate the premises sweetie. I’d take the hint if I was you .

We have all spoilt you so much already , I’m so excited to see you in the clothes I have got you. Not to long ago I bought a crocheting kit , it was to crochet a monkey that I was going to give to your mummy when you were born , I’m sorry to say sofia but it nearly ended up through my window and across the street , nobody told me that crocheting would be so bloody hard!!! I should have listed to my best friend when she said with a slight amount of suprise to her voice …. “your going to do that?” I rather confidently said yes and then said I was doing her little girl one too !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well that’s never going too happen.

So my little mooch it’s your call , we are all waiting for you my darling it’s your call (apart from August the 4th , don’t leave it that late , because if you don’t come soon that’s the day you’ll be induced… sorry to break it too you kiddo.)

So my lovely girl you will be the most loved little girl in the world , so many people are waiting for you , I bet it’s making you feel like a little celeb right now , well enjoy it … It wears off after a while , unless of course you actually do become a celeb well then you’ll just have a lifetime of people following you around with cameras haha.

Love you moochie, so much already , can’t wait to hug you tightly and kiss you so you can feel a small proportion of just how much I love you already.

Take care sweetie and ill meet you soon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx


Day out with the fairy godmother …

Sofia , 

Above ^^^ a time when it all got too much. 

Today you did indeed race into my room asking for George again . We briefly watched some peppa pig before me rushing around to get ready and head off out . 

I came back with your godmother , you were so excited she was here you raced into nana shouting “nana nana , Hannah’s here” jumping about all excited . You kept laughing and shouting “hannah,hannah”. 

Hannah sat at the table with you whilst you were lunching away on your pasta and colouring in .  whilst I got your car seat in my car and got ready for a little adventure .

When your finished we all marched to the car you kissed nana goodbye and shouted “chow” which made your godmummy crease . 

We went back to Hannah’s to pick her little dog up , you were obsessed from the moment he got in the car , giggling away in the back shouting “dog, woof woof” he stuck his head out of the window , you didn’t think much of this and told him he was a naughty dog . 

We finally arrived at elvaston castle , you were adamant you were holding the lead, and you were not best pleased when we had to let him off and you no longer had somthing to hold . So the rest of the walk consisted of you running after Him shouting “siiiiiiiiiiidddddddd…. sidddddddddd Come here” and then trying to reconnect him back to his lead!.

You started to get tired and asked me for a pick up , that was until you saw the play park . “Sliddddddde , slidddddddde ” were your next favourite  words of the day . So off we trotted.

We lay in a big netted swing while hannah pushed us both, you laughed and then you were determined this wasn’t fulfilling your slide need, so hannah then took you on the climbing frame and slide which you went on repeatedly . 

I’ve learnt the easiest way to leave somthing your enjoying when we have to go is to tell you to say bye bye to it , you then leave rather peacefully . If I wasn’t to do this all hell would break loose ,I’d be tending to a toddler who goes floppy when trying to pick her up, then proceeds to throw herself on the floor. 

All in all it’s been a lovely, beautiful day. 

Keep being you beautiful.

Love you so so so much 



George got demoted ….

Hey beautiful babes ,

So I’m gutted you stopped last night ( I was at work for 12 hours ) and you stopped again tonight ( I was at work another 12 hours) . So we have not managed to cross paths at all.

well except for this morning when you raced into my room and asked for George …. you may be wondering who George actually is right ? Well you’ve actually demoted the famous peppa pig and now apparently according to you it’s all about George .  

So you sat on my bed with me for half an hour scrolling through peppa pig videos looking for George . “Where’s George?” Was the famous phrase of the half an hour I got to spend with you 😦 . You were quite happy when you got to a video staring George but as soon as he was off screen you weren’t bothered and you were on to the next video in search of your new found love . 

Apparently today you did some colouring at the table with nana and spent a little time talking to the little girl next door .  Apart from that beautiful I don’t have much to write you . 

I love you so much babes . Sweet dreams and I’ll hopefully spend another George filled half an hour with your tomorrow before I have too shoot off again 😦 .


The weekend and mothers day.


Its been a lovely weekend, yesterday we spent the day chilling out you were my best friend considering a few days earlier I was considerably not one of your favourites. I couldn’t look at you without you giving me an evil stare or you shouting inaudible words at me haha. you were quite poorly though so I understood.

yesterday we went shopping with your mummy , you were insistent on holding the basket with me around the shop and every so often went on a mad dash which resulted in my chasing you full speed around the isles , you found this hilarious chuckling until I caught you. then well it was screams and more inaudible insults. when we got home you helped your dad plant some plants in the garden , potting plants, watering them and attempting to dig holes in the grass. every five seconds you would look up and tell me there was either a bird or a plane in the sky . you were adorable .

today you came round for Sunday lunch , you scoffed your lamb and the announced to the table you were finished haha , you then went round the table telling everyone who they were . after this we went on a walk , taking you on a walk is like taking the queen you make me smile so  much , you wave at everyone and say hello . you stood watching two dogs in awe as they were running in and out of the water fetching sticks . “hello doggy” and then you would tootle on . your favourite part seemed to be the little water fall… you stuck your head through the railings laughing and smiling at the water gushing by and the cold air coming up at your face .


now your fast off or you were when we departed , love you little one never stop smiling xxx



The day you were born.


Well this makes for a rather interesting post, you were born at 5.23am on Friday the 31st of July, weighing in at a healthy 7lb 7oz .

so the day started your nana rushing into my room to tell me that your mums waters have broken and that she’s heading into hospital, I woke up in a massive daze not sure whether I was dreaming or whether it was really happening. there I was at 5.00am Thursday morning all naïve at the fact she would go to hospital and you would pop out and id be an auntie at 7.00am . well your mum came home didn’t she !! you still in her belly. so I went to work to excited to focus on anything else but you! what will she look like? is she going to be ok? .

I eventually finished my 12 hour shift and came home your mum was just coming back from the hospital as her contractions were starting to intensify , they told her to come home and relax until her contractions were so far apart. it had always been known that your mum had wanted it to be you and your dad so as much as id have loved to have seen you be born I respected their wishes and resigned myself to the fact id meet you not long after which was fine , but when I got in your mum was in a lot of pain I ran her a bath and comforted her as much as I could have , alongside your dad . it got to the point when it was time to go back to the hospital I helped your mum get ready and then that’s when she asked me to come , I was so honoured and unbelievably happy that I was going to get to see my beautiful niece be born!! .

we got to the hospital in a rush, your mum was exhausted and in a lot of pain . we ran a bath for her in the birthing suite and she tried to relieve her contractions . nothing seemed to be helping her. she had to get out for a check up so your dad helped her out and assisted her to the bed, 4 cms  dilated your mum was disheartened . she had gas and air and an injection to ease the pain which it did to considerably.

at about 4.00am on Friday morning your mum had to go on a drip as it had been 24 hours since her waters broke and it was to decrease any chances of you and her getting any infections, your mum was checked again not long after this and was 9 1/2 cms dilated woohoo !! it was then your mum started to involuntarily push, this panicked me so I rushed out to the midwives station to check all was okay , and that this was a normal thing. apparently it was and so she was left to do her thing.

at about 5.15 am you mum was told she could push , and so she did you were finally born at 5.23am you were wet bloody and slimy  , you were blue and not moving the midwife started to rub you with a towel , you still didn’t move , I started to panic a little . she turned around and asked me to pass her another towel , I couldn’t find one so passed her sheet , she continued to rub you and you squirmed a little but didn’t respond as she would have liked. she moved you over to the table and then rang the emergency buzzer . a crash team came running in with about 6 people surrounding your tiny body. I started to cry , in hope you would be ok. eventually you started to breathe in a relatively normal manor , you were passed briefly to your mum for a cuddle in which I took the opportunity to plant a massive kiss on your head.

you were the whisked off to NICU, I gave your mum a kiss and a cuddle and then I had to leave to go to work , I cried all the way to the car park and all the way home . then all the way to work. praying you would be ok.

little did we know that night we found out you had meningitis and would be in hospital for 2 weeks.

thank you for being you , and thank you for being the little fighter you were!!.

love you x